booie.

woohoo. todae's youth dae. hahax. got celebrations in sch! DunmaNiaN iDol! loLx. quite fun lo. zw rox. of coz from 4i mahx! anywayx the winner li ke oso sing veri niceee. at least i tink he can sing an jing beta than slyester lo. three cheers!

den went to tm with zf, crystal and heex. ate kfc. went to c phones. so ex. n i took a whole lot of pamplets home. hhahax. bought ching hui's prezzie with zf. went popular. bought the potato chips dere. pengX.

reached home bout 5 plus. slp the evening off. den woke up to watch tv. lalaala~ n the whole dae is almost gone. of coz a lot of time was wasted on eating too la. ate so much junk stuff. tink i'll explode soon. can't help but keep eating. eating can keep mi from thinking too much. hahax. wen ppl r troubled they starve. i envy them lo. y m i the opposite lahx. argh. eat eat eat.

watching jiu wu zhi zun now. last episode lo! cutes cutes.

todae lulu said something. made mi think a lot. tsk tsk y din he say earlier lahx. bahx bahx.

feelin scared bout everything now. realised tat i'm veri far back in studies now. n the dsa thingy is making mi lose all my confidence la. even tjc oso neva rep. tink i sux la. juz a study nerd tat i got nth to offer. and now i'm rusty at all my subjects le. n i keep slacking. yeah it's probably the duno-how-many times i've saying i wan to change my slackness. n ppl think i juz like complaining. but honestly it's juz scary... to lose control of myself. everidae i tell maiself i wan to at least complete mai homework. but there's so many temptations and distractions like the com (this blogg too), the tv, music, food, going out,day-dream,slp blahx blahx. and i juz can't resist them. y m i so useless... feel so lost... tink i'm getting the jitters alreadi.

dun wan to be go all 'crazy' and excited over it le. dun wan keep harping on something tat is alreadi gone. dun wan to keep giving maiself false hopes, n feelin heavy n depressed in the end wen i realised it's juz my wishful thinking. dun wan to keep thinking it's a big big deal in mai life. dun wan to keep feelin tat without this my life will never be complete, feeling like there's something seriously missing. dun wan to suddenly cry and blame myself for everything and start daydreaming.

i dun wan. dun wan. it's so tough...

but i juz can't stop. juz can't...