todae is first day of orientation.
went there with enthusiasiam.
came home with tears.
my orientation grp is ozmose's oz.
out of bout 13 ppl 7 of them are dunmanians.
conicidentally they all seem to know each other.
ppl keep saying i'm lucky.
but let mi tell u i'm NOT.
all of them are sticking together.
i can't seem to communicate with them.
then there left 2 more girls from other sch.
one don't seem to wan make fren mi. she turn to the other dunmanians.
the other either is not interested in making friends or is toking to others.
time seems to pass very slowly today.
i had to keep pretending to be enthu. dun show a sulking face.
i'm juz standing there alone. sitting alone. watching alone.
i was toelrating. oppressing the sadness in me. was doing fine till..
i lost my shoebag which contain my white dhs uniform, my new orientation shirt and all the impt papers.
i was so freaked out and scared.
at the end of the day i told my group members. the dunmanians and the other girls.
nobody tried to help.
they juz leave.
at tat time i was at total loss.
i asked one of my orl wat to do if i lost the orientation shirt coz we r supposed to wear it tml.
she say go find. if can't find she also duno how liao lo.
at tat point of time i felt so lost.
luckily after many ppl leave liao i found my bag at another corner.
tink someone took wrongly and left it lying ard.
was controllin my tears then.
i went home alone, oppressing.
anyway no one ask mi go home 2gether.
once i reached home i broke down.
i cried to my mum. told her why.
my mum scolded mi at first.
but she saw mi crying so badly then she stopped.
my sis oso sae it's juz first day of orientation.
but my grp ppl are like so shou liao.
only me. a stupid outcast.
and i tink the otehr dunmanians which i noe oso dun care bout mi liao la.
i was never an impt fren.
plus i'm taking such a weird combi tat few take.
i know the other 4 more days of orientation will not be different.
i duno how i m gonna live thru it.
and everyday is like morning to evening. 5 plus 6 o'clock den end.
i'm gonna die.
i dun wan tml to cum.
bad luck juz seems to follow mi.
last time my teeth are like straight. really.
but now they r alreadi getting crooked.
alreadi one front tooth like tat liao.
now i noticed the two veri front 'door' teeth also getting crooked le.
but no one believes mi.
my mum asked mi to shut up n stop pestering her.
but it's true.
my sis sae maybe coz my teeth are quite close to each otehr so they start squeezin each other, causing them to be crooked.
my god la. i'm alreadi so ugly. with ugly features.
now my teeth oso like tat.
i confirm no money go repair de.
why is my life so miserable?
2006 sux and i have 12 months more to live thru.
kill mi.